My Worst Decision
by Justin Abell
Ashtray

     Many people make decisions that will greatly effect the way they live. A decision of this nature has the power to change one’s whole life. When I was 13 years old I made the decision to begin smoking cigarettes. This choice has effected my life in several ways; it is the worst decision I ever made.

     When I began smoking I was young and did not think of the effects it would bring. I was at an age where I felt a need for rebellion and cigarettes seemed to be a perfect cure for that need. I was not peer pressured into smoking, probably due to the fact that not many of the kids my age smoked. The reason I remember was me wanting to do something different and extreme. I do not know why I thought that this different and extreme thing had to be something bad. While trying to create an image for myself I got addicted. My addiction is strong and hard to avoid. The main reason I smoke now is my job, a cigarette helps me relax after a stressful day at work. School is another reason I still smoke, after a test a cigarette seems to help my mind calm down. I know of the dangers of smoking, but some how I still find a way to enjoy it.

     The effects of smoking, both physical and mental, are tremendous. I sometimes experience a shortness of breath when I wake up in the mornings. I am not nearly as athletic as I used to be. When I look back on my teenage life I almost always see myself with a cigarette. I hate that I think it is necessary to have a cigarette to relax. When I look back on my decision it makes me think of my parents and how angry they were. At the time I did not care if they were mad because I expected them to be, but now I see that they had all the reason in the world. I should have known that they were looking out for my best interest. I wish things turned out differently and I had a good habit that did not take my money and gave me more than bad breath and a little satisfaction.

     The worst decision I have made was to start smoking cigarettes. To this day I still smoke and it is not something I am proud of at all. All I need is to find the strength to quit for good. When that day comes and I am able to quit it will be one of the greatest decisions of my life.


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